Im trying to see things differently for him. I'm trying to look
at the "bright side" of things. Instead of seeing differences, I'm seeing cute little quirks. I know there are times that I've got to bend him, bend him enough where he thinks he's going to break but then he will see that the world doesn't end if something goes a different way. I'm also letting things go. So what if he wants to listen to the same song over and over for an hour straight? Who's he hurting? NO ONE..and its okay! If he is happy, then I'm happy.
Its one day at a time, one event at a time..If we can get through one day, we can get through 5. It will be okay, maybe not the "okay" I was expecting but we will be okay, in some sense of the word. I love him. I love him more than I could ever imagine loving someone or something. When he hurts, I hurt. When he cries, I cry. When he's in pain, I'm in pain. I hate that he has to struggle and that he will always be different but at the same time, I'm thrilled that my kid may pave a way for others to go down a path that is different and that he will help them know that being "different" is good! Its not something bad and that just because you see the world in a different way doesn't mean you are weird. We need more people in the world to look at things differently. He has already taught me to look at the world differently and for that I'm so very grateful. So for his sake, I'm trying my best to keep seeing things differently..Not at problems but as solutions to things that i had never thought of..Together, we can do great things!!